I am a middle-class White woman who was born and
raised in Rhode Island. As long as I’ve been alive, my
parents have been considered middle class. They also have always owned two
houses during my lifetime. Growing up, I never had to worry about a lack of
shelter, food, clothes, or any other necessities. Therefore, my education was
not disrupted. I did attend public school, but I always went to schools that
performed well on standardized tests and received adequate funding. I’ve always
viewed education as an important and necessary component in my life, which is
one reason why I decided to major in the education field.
In regards to
my ethnicity, my European descent consists of equal parts Italian, Irish, and
English, which I recently discovered through a DNA test. Although my ancestors
are from Europe, I am the third generation in my family to be an American
citizen, so I know little about these cultures. I do realize that being White
in America creates certain privileges, one being that I’ve never had to think
much about my race or culture. Even though I am advantaged, I’ve tried to use
my point of privilege to spread awareness to others of the disparities within
our nation. I grew up with open-minded parents who taught me to advocate for
the voiceless within our society. This has helped me develop a strong sense of
empathy for others, which I also try to instill within my students. I try to do
this in several ways, including journaling, shared writing, multi-cultural
texts, lessons on privilege and institutional racism, and learning about
authors from diverse backgrounds.
During my own experiences as a student, I found
my true role model in high school. I had an inspiring English teacher for three
consecutive years. I saw this woman as a mentor and someone that I strived to
resemble in my own career. She is the main reason I majored in education, and I
often still keep her in mind when I teach today. Due to my experiences within her
class, I now often reflect on the important of voice and choice within the
classroom. Additionally, I see the important of adding “real-world” relevancy
to the lessons we do within the classroom.
As an
educator, I want to help my students recognize their own capabilities. Until
high school, I often felt that I was inadequate when it came to education.
These feelings evolved from a combination of grades, peer bullying, and a lack
of motivation. I want to help students
realize their own abilities and talents. Additionally, I want to help inform my
students about life lessons. I want my students to become contributing members
of society who realize the importance of kindness and helping others is more imperative
than just becoming wealthy in life. This includes teaching students to think
critically and to stand up for their own beliefs.
Regardless of
a student’s current grades or situation, I strongly believe that all students
want to learn. I think the key is to help students see the relevance in the
work they are doing. I try to create this by finding ways for the students to
relate to the work. For example, I will often write journal prompts based on a
book we are reading but these prompts will ask students to respond personally
and to use examples from their own lives. Also, I try to find ways to include
articles or technology that relate to the material we are learning while
relating to current world affairs. I’ve found that this relevancy is what
engaged me in a class, which is why I see it as being a crucial element within
my own classroom today.
Although I do
have these philosophies that I abide by in my career, I do still have some
uncertainties and questions within my profession. I have been teaching for
three years now, but I still have not been able to get a grip on some questions
that I have about education. For example, I wonder what else I should be doing
to ensure that I am teaching students to think critically. Am I giving students
the space and guidance to think critically or am I spoon feeding them what to
think? How can I ensure that students are participating in inquiry?
Additionally,
I sometimes question if I am reaching each student’s zone of proximal
development. Is it possible to adequately challenge all students with the same
assignment? I find that I often add modifications for students who might struggle
with a text, but is this making it too easy or boring for other students within
the room? I find it difficult and time consuming to differentiate instruction
or assignments and I wonder if this is something I should be doing more of in
my classroom.
Within my own
uncertainties, I sometimes experience tensions within my own self-reflection.
I’ve had students tell me that they aren’t reading and are only using reading
supplements to help them pass my class. There seems to be an overall consensus
among students that this is normal and acceptable behavior. I try to assign
prompts of questions to accompany the reading and this just leads to more
online “answer seeking” or plagiarism. With the growing technology, I find it
more and more difficult to hold students responsible. What are other English
teachers doing to curve this phenomenon? I’ve talked to recent graduates from
local high schools who also admit that they never did the assigned readings and
still passed the class. I fear that students are setting themselves up for
failure and this is something I hope I can change.
In addition, another area of tension involves the lack of
participation I face in some of my classes. Students will sometimes be reluctant
to share answers even when called upon. I would like to see more students
engage in discussion without me pressuring them into answering. I believe that
this is necessary to help students engage with the course and develop their
speaking and language skills.
In closing,
my graduate courses have helped me reflect on my own practice and question how
I can improve my praxis. I do believe that teachers can always improve,
regardless of their years of experience. This line of thinking has helped
closely examine my own instruction and the students’ response. I’m confident my
action research project can help me explore these areas of tension, which will
make me a better teacher.